light

In darkness I lay
Soul snatched by the devil in disguise
searching for the light I lament

Ohh Heart.. Why Him..

There is a million reasons why I should not love him..
Why I should not care..
Why I should not long, crave for him..
For his touch..For his kisses..
For his voice..For his love
Iv tried not feeling anything for him..
I have tried to convince myself to move on..
To forget about him..
Because he has probably forgotten about me now..
Probably moved on to the next girl..
But my heart and soul can’t help it..
He is permanently etched onto my heart..Onto my skin
I breathe through him..
I need him…

I Long To Go Back…

I wish..

I just yearn..

That I could go back..

Travel back to a time..

When I used to be free..

A time when I used to be brave..

Unafraid to live..

Fearless to explore…

Open to shamelessly love..

Swallow Me Whole…

I feel a darkness..
A darkness within..
Surrounding me..
Like dark poisonous vines curving around a dying tree..
Pain..
Utter and ultimate misery..
Twirls around my slow beating heart..
Swallowing me whole..
Devouring my inner being..

Damned..

Rocking back and forth..
Trapped in the cornner sobbing..
Trying to outrun the nightmare..
Incubus won’t vanish..
Tormenting me day and night..
Keeping me in the hallows of fear..
Eternally held captive..
Danmed to live in the horrid darkness..

Toxic Angst..

You are a stiff drug for me..
Toxic and acidic to my heart

Devouring me up from the inside out..

I’m in a constant fog..

Trying but failing desperately to remember my life before you..

You blind me from seeing the rest of the world..

Fueling my frantic need for you..

My dependency of you is an ache..

An ache which morphs into a physical pain..

When i’m away from you I can not bare it..

You open my rib cage and leave my soul exposed..

My core drilled and etched away..

You are my needle, my anxiety, my morphine..

You unnaturally enjoys my suffering..

Watching me sadistically and giving me a wicked smile..

Your distance brings about a state of confusion, perplexity, mystery..

A feeling of deep and utter loss..

Feelings of bereavement bring about withdrawal symptoms..

And I have no way of preventing this angst.. 

He Breathes..

He breathes..

Taking in the cool night breeze..

Occasionally  giving me a glance..

Distant, unattached, uninvolved..

Distracted by the pretty damsels..

Dancing around..

Carefree in their flimsy summer dresses..

He breathes..

Occasionally drizzling me with attention..

Spraying me with affection..

Continuously ignoring my longing..

He drinks me up and sucks me dry..

Then spits me out and stomps on me..

Before taking his leave..

All that’s left is a whisper of me..

Dislodged..

Frayed..

Flamming Out..

 

 

Could it be our love is fading..

With every action we take..

We grow further apart..

The glow gets darker by the second..

Leaving it only a flicker of light..

A flicker of hope..

A flicker of memories..

Forever lost in this damned darkness..

Girl In The Mirror

Look into my eyes

Do you see what i see

Do you see the torment

Your glimpse is so hypnotic I ache for you

Felling a dark twinge deep inside me

Completely mystified I turn away

Not being courageous enough to gaze into those cold eyes

Unbearably soul less, they suck me in

Filling me wholly and utterly with agony

Becoming one with those eyes i no longer exist

No longer know the difference

Are you me..

 Am I you….

Am I hallucinating….

Will I ever know…

Battle Of The Souls….

 

The night is dark, as terrifying demons lie in wait

I hold my armor up and prepare for battle 

I put my soul at risk to destroy the monsters running in the shadows

Combat goes on for eternity under the gloomy moon

Limbs are torn and bones are crushed

Eyes glaring like empty holes on their faces

Until daylight comes and they disappear into nothingness like they never where

Leaving only whispers and veils of the war before