Speak

My soul speaks to you…
Your ego speaks to me..
You look into my eyes and you see unfathomable love..
I look into your eyes and all I see is cold lust…
You search my heart and all you find is longing..
I search your heart and all I find is emptiness…
You touch my body and you want to do like you did a hundred before me..
I touch your body and I want yours to be the only body I touch..
You need someone there to make you feel good about yourself..
I need someone there to love and complete me…
You open your mouth and all that flows out is vanity and lies..
I open my mouth and all that flows out is endless honesty..
You need to leave but you won’t because you are addicted to the sex…
I need to leave but I won’t because I am addicted to the thought of you loving me..
My lips speak to you and all you want to do is have a taste…
Your lips speak and all I want to do is be your girl for eternity…
I speak to you and all that comes out is question after question..
You speak to me and not a single answer makes an appearance..
I cant get enough of your sweet meaningless words…
You cant get enough of my soft touch and calming voice..
You spin your web of lies and trap me in..
I spin my web of naivety and hope and try to trap you…
We are forever stuck in a place that neither of us can escape…

My confession…

I have a confession ..
Anywhere we are…
Anytime..
I want to be where ever you are
I want to see whatever you see..
To feel Everything you feel..
To swim in your happiness..
To drown in your sadness and misery..
To be part of every adventure.. Every moment..
To be a part of you..
To live in your soul….
To walk around your heart..
I want to know how to love you…
How to make you smile..
How to make you cry..
How to make you lose your mind..
How to drive you mad with passion..
How to bring out the beast in you…
How to make desire pour out of you..
And pour onto me..
How to make you violent..
I want to know every..
Because I am trapped..
Trapped within myself when you cross my mind..
A slave to a master..
I endure only pain..
Committed to a life of loneliness and despair..
Just a body with an empty soul..

Lost…

Gazing at you..
At your deep, dark blue eyes..
Or are they purple..
Maybe black..
I dare not wonder anymore..
All I know is they stole my words…
And now I need those eyes to keep existing..
Because they see me….
They see my soul..
My inner being..
They give me strength..
Fill me with love..With hope..With life..
Without them I am lost..

A little whisper

She whispers..

Green trees and lilies sprout..

Heart instantly swells

Stay With Me..

Please don’t leave me..
I’ll be good.. Better than before..
I need you… I crave you..
I will do anything you desire of me..
I will be anyone you need me to be..
I will follow you to the ends of the world..
Just please don’t leave..
Stay with me…

Enough..

Iv always had a fear of not being enough..
Not pretty enough..
Not smart enough…
Not successful enough..
Not adventurous enough..
Not outgoing enough..
Not lovable enough..
But you..
You make me feel ..
Like a genius..
Like a goddess..
Like the life of the party..
Loved, cherished, adored, cared for, protected, desired..
You make me feel like I am all that you will ever need..
Like I am your whole world..
Like your life would never be complete without me..
Like your life would be without color..
Without light..
You make me feel like I am more than enough..
Like i’m special..One of a kind..
And for that I will love you till my last breath..

Give Me My Heart Back..

I wish I could plug a lovometer into my heart..
Or even place a stethoscope near on my chest…
Or simply put your hand on my chest..
Just so you can feel me..
Know me..
Gage my love..
So you can know how you make me burn..
How my heart aches and breaks when I can’t have you..
So that you know when I tell you I miss you, I need you.. I want you..
What I really mean is I can’t survive without you..
My life is dark with no colors without you..
Know that i’m asking you to show me you need me as much as I do you..
Begging you to give me my heart back..
Because it hurts so bad to have this empty space where it should be..

Don’t Tame Me..

 

They see me roar..
They wonder why I soar..
They wonder why I am..
The way that I am..
They question why I live the way I do..
They marvel at my every move..
They look at my being..
My wild hair..
My passionate personality..
My outrageous clothes..
The unexpected actions..
They see my free spirit parading..
The animal within displayed..
I tell them don’t judge me..
Don’t try to change me..
Don’t try to tame me..
I’m a lost cause..
Either fly with me..
Or watch me rise..

Fire And Ice

We are like fire and ice..

My flaming heat…

To your freezing cold…

My kisses warm up your arctic soul…

Your caresses calms my scalding spirit…

Sparks fly into the frost as we lust for each other..

Entwined together we perform a sinful dance…

Toxic Angst..

You are a stiff drug for me..
Toxic and acidic to my heart

Devouring me up from the inside out..

I’m in a constant fog..

Trying but failing desperately to remember my life before you..

You blind me from seeing the rest of the world..

Fueling my frantic need for you..

My dependency of you is an ache..

An ache which morphs into a physical pain..

When i’m away from you I can not bare it..

You open my rib cage and leave my soul exposed..

My core drilled and etched away..

You are my needle, my anxiety, my morphine..

You unnaturally enjoys my suffering..

Watching me sadistically and giving me a wicked smile..

Your distance brings about a state of confusion, perplexity, mystery..

A feeling of deep and utter loss..

Feelings of bereavement bring about withdrawal symptoms..

And I have no way of preventing this angst..