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She gives him all her being
He takes and gives nothing
She gives him more

My First Heart Break

They say a mother’s love is all encompassing
A mother’s love is power
A mother’s love gives sustenance
A mother’s love heals wounds
A mother’s love embraces the heart and soul

She birthed me
She raised me
She fed me
She loved me
But never as much as she did my kin

She birthed her before me
She put her on a pedestal
She nourished her
Mind body and soul
She adored her
More than she ever did me

They say a mother’s love is all encompassing
But my mother’s love is fickle and conditional


A mother’s love gives power
But my mother’s love makes me weak and frail


A mother’s love gives sustenance
But my mother’s love leaves me yearning and famished


A mother’s love heals all wounds
But my mother’s love breaks me and creates deep gashes


A mother’s love embraces your heart and soul
But my mother’s love shatters my heart and cracks open my soul



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A single thought

I sit here watching you
Looking at your face
I suddenly realize
You are not so handsome after all

I sit here listening to you speak
Listening but not really hearing you
Then I realize
Your words aren’t so sweet after all

I sit here seeing you move
Watching your hands
And realize suddenly
Your touch isn’t so soft and affectionate after all

I sit here peering at you
gazing deep into your eyes
And I realize suddenly
Your eyes aren’t so deep and loving after all

I sit here wondering
Maybe, just maybe, you are not it
Maybe you are not my soul mate
Maybe I’m not in love with you after all

I sit here saddened by a thought
A thought I’m having for the first time since we met
A thought sending shocks through my being
A thought that maybe
 I just might have to break your heart
And in turn break my own heart

Shadow..

Sometimes…
Sometimes I wish I could be your shadow..
To trail behind you like a lost soul trying to catch on to its body..
Just so that I can get a chance…..
A fruitless, mindless chance…
To simply exist within the same space as you..

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Found…

You walk into a crowded room..
You search..scanning the faces in the room..
Until your eyes find mine..
Then time stills..
The world stops spinning..
I stop breathing..
I’m found..
I’m alive..
I’m loved..
And possessed..
And excited..
And nervous..
Like its been forever..
An eternety really..
Forever and a hundred days..
Since I have been discovered..
Since you have looked at me..
Since you have explored me..
But in reality..
It has been but an hour..

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I Want To Fall..

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I want to fall..
To fall so suddenly and so fast..
To fall in love so hard it hurts..
To fall maddenly over the peak I would break..
To stay up all night talking about things..
Or maybe not talking at all..
Just being..
I want to claw across him..
Crawl into him..
To learn his every secret..
His every flaw..
His every thought..
His every story..
His every dream..
I want to be in one of those dreams..
To be all he dreams about..
All he thinks about..
I want to be one of those secrets..
To be all his words..
To be intoxicated by him..
to feel crazed by him..
To be wanton and out of control..
I want to fall so deep..
So deep it makes me want to do everything..
Or maybe nothing..
To be helpless in his love..
To fall and never get up..

Lost…

Gazing at you..
At your deep, dark blue eyes..
Or are they purple..
Maybe black..
I dare not wonder anymore..
All I know is they stole my words…
And now I need those eyes to keep existing..
Because they see me….
They see my soul..
My inner being..
They give me strength..
Fill me with love..With hope..With life..
Without them I am lost..

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