More and more my head rules my life.. I stay alive in my own head.. Thinking…Wondering… Stressing Imagining..Fantasizing.. Shutting myself out from the world.. The disappointment around me.. The desolation of being me.. The pain of reality..
More and more I live in my own head.. My happy place.. My solace of peace.. Reality and fantasy merging into one.. More and more I vanish Evaporating into nothingness.. And more and more I do not want to come back..
Kiss my lips like I’m the air you need.. Taste my body like its the only thing that has ever and will ever fill you.. Hold me like my body is your anchor… Set my body on fire… Forget about the ache in your heart.. Forget about making love.. Forget about connecting with my lonely soul… Make my body come alive..
Make me moan..
Make me scream your name..
Make me shiver in lust..
Make me beg for more..
Make me forget about the rest of the world…
Make me forget about the ache deep within..
Make me forget about me..
Make me forget about him..
And I will make you forget about her.. Forget about my heart…My soul..My head… Forget about loving me.. Forget about making me yours.. Forget about a life time together.. Let us just think about this moment in time.. As long as you set my body on fire..
My soul speaks to you…
Your ego speaks to me..
You look into my eyes and you see unfathomable love..
I look into your eyes and all I see is cold lust…
You search my heart and all you find is longing..
I search your heart and all I find is emptiness…
You touch my body and you want to do like you did a hundred before me..
I touch your body and I want yours to be the only body I touch..
You need someone there to make you feel good about yourself..
I need someone there to love and complete me…
You open your mouth and all that flows out is vanity and lies..
I open my mouth and all that flows out is endless honesty..
You need to leave but you won’t because you are addicted to the sex…
I need to leave but I won’t because I am addicted to the thought of you loving me..
My lips speak to you and all you want to do is have a taste…
Your lips speak and all I want to do is be your girl for eternity…
I speak to you and all that comes out is question after question..
You speak to me and not a single answer makes an appearance..
I cant get enough of your sweet meaningless words…
You cant get enough of my soft touch and calming voice..
You spin your web of lies and trap me in..
I spin my web of naivety and hope and try to trap you…
We are forever stuck in a place that neither of us can escape…
You are the reason I draw breathes
The reason I open my eyes
The reason my heart beats a little too fast
The reason I can smell the blossoms
The reason I hear birds chip in the morning
The reason I smile
The reason my lips tingle with just a slight touch from yours
The reason my spine curves with just a stroke of your finger
You are the reason my body lights up with just a glance from your mesmerizing eyes
The reason my toes curl up in ecstasy every time I hear your deep baritone
You are the reason
My reason for everything
I have a confession .. Anywhere we are… Anytime.. I want to be where ever you are I want to see whatever you see.. To feel Everything you feel.. To swim in your happiness.. To drown in your sadness and misery.. To be part of every adventure.. Every moment.. To be a part of you.. To live in your soul…. To walk around your heart.. I want to know how to love you… How to make you smile.. How to make you cry.. How to make you lose your mind.. How to drive you mad with passion.. How to bring out the beast in you… How to make desire pour out of you.. And pour onto me.. How to make you violent.. I want to know every.. Because I am trapped.. Trapped within myself when you cross my mind..
A slave to a master..
I endure only pain.. Committed to a life of loneliness and despair.. Just a body with an empty soul..