Reality…

Sometimes I think i’m fine..
I think my world is completely normal..
Content even.. 
That I might even be happy one day..
But then reality crashes over me..
And i realize the place where my heart used to reside is empty..
All that is left is a dark void..

Toxic Angst..

You are a stiff drug for me..
Toxic and acidic to my heart

Devouring me up from the inside out..
I’m in a constant fog..
Trying but failing desperately to remember my life before you..
You blind me from seeing the rest of the world..
Fueling my frantic need for you..
My dependency of you is an ache..
An ache which morphs into a physical pain..
When i’m away from you I can not bare it..
You open my rib cage and leave my soul exposed..
My core drilled and etched away..
You are my needle, my anxiety, my morphine..
You unnaturally enjoys my suffering..
Watching me sadistically and giving me a wicked smile..
Your distance brings about a state of confusion, perplexity, mystery..
A feeling of deep and utter loss..
Feelings of bereavement bring about withdrawal symptoms..
And I have no way of preventing this angst.. 

gal

I Look At You..

coy

I look at you and think..

You have the loveliest heart..

I think you are the funniest man ever to exist..
 
I think you are the most powerful man alive..
 
I think you are the sexiest being on the planet..
I think i just might be the luckiest girl on earth..
 
I think we were created for each other..
 
I look at your sparkling sleepy eyes..
 
Laying there looking all coy and playful and think..
How i’m completely obsessed with you..
 
Heck i think i love you maybe a tad too much..
Like a drug I never want to quit..
You are forever my addiction..