Depression

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More and more my head rules my life..
I stay alive in my own head..
Thinking…Wondering… Stressing
Imagining..Fantasizing..
Shutting myself out from the world..
The disappointment around me..
The desolation of being me..
The pain of reality..

More and more I live in my own head..
My happy place..
My solace of peace..
Reality and fantasy merging into one..
More and more I vanish
Evaporating into nothingness..
And more and more I do not want to come back..

Yours..

She is yours..
Your woman..
Your girl..
Your lover..
Your cheer leader..
Your forever…

Treat her like she deserves..
Protect her…Cherish her..Adore her..Respect her..
Or watch as someone else does..

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First Touch…

“Iv never done this before”.. I whispered more to myself than to her..
“I’m glad i’m your first” She murmured..
Distracted by the sound of my dress hitting the floor..
She watched me…No.. Gazed at me..
Eyes glazed over in lust..Pure unadulterated desire..
Taking everything in as if in a trance..
As if I’m the sexiest vixen alive..
She sat quietly as I took off every stitch of clothing..
Letting them fall one by one..
Exposing myself to her hungry stare..
Until I stood in front of her with just my heels..
As she strolled towards me.. Prowled more like
Focused, sexy and confident..
Like a panther stalking it’s prey..
Ready for the take down..
A slight shiver of anticipation runs though my body..
As she stops in front of me she ran her hands over me..
Leaving goose bumps trailing behind her caress..
Starting at the nape of my neck.. Down my arms..
Touching the side of my breast.. Barely grazing my nipples..
“So beautiful” She said sounding amazed..
“Am I really all she says i am” my mind starts to wonder…
She moves her hands down my waist..
Grabbing my butt and squeezing roughly..
Moaning deep in her throat before her soft perfect lips crashed down on mine…
All thought dissipated…
All that mattered was this feeling.. This moment..

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Stay With Me..

Please don’t leave me..
I’ll be good.. Better than before..
I need you… I crave you..
I will do anything you desire of me..
I will be anyone you need me to be..
I will follow you to the ends of the world..
Just please don’t leave..
Stay with me…

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Enough..

Iv always had a fear of not being enough..
Not pretty enough..
Not smart enough…
Not successful enough..
Not adventurous enough..
Not outgoing enough..
Not lovable enough..
But you..
You make me feel ..
Like a genius..

Like a goddess..
Like the life of the party..
Loved, cherished, adored, cared for, protected, desired..
You make me feel like I am all that you will ever need..
Like I am your whole world..
Like your life would never be complete without me..
Like your life would be without color..
Without light..
You make me feel like I am more than enough..
Like i’m special..One of a kind..
And for that I will love you till my last breath..

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Just One Night..

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“Do you trust me?”…
He asks..

“With my life”..
She says..

“Do you love me?”
She asks..

“Now and forever”..
He says..

“Let me taste you”..
He asks..

“Would you ever hurt me?”..
She asks..

“Never”..
He answers..

“Then you can have me”
She says..

“You are MINE”..
He says..

They both know he is lying..
Yet choose to forget it..
Just this once..
Just for one night..

Mine..

How I wish to feel your callused hands caressing my soft skin..
Your tongue on my tongue, my neck, my nipple, my entire body..
To breathe the same air as you when you loom above me..
Close enough to ravish my mouth yet so far away..
To feel shivers move down my spine as you growl dirty,sweet nothings in my ear..
To feel the weight of your body as you lower onto me pressing me into the mattress..
The pleasure, pain of being connected to every part of you..
To hear the breathless grunts of you racing to the edge..
The slap of skin against skin in the quietened room..
To bear the ecstasy of going over the edge with you..
Oh love, how I wish you were mine..

Note: My awesome followers i just want to apologize for going AWOL on you all for the last few months. I had some pretty hectic family stuff to deal with but now I am back and i promise i’m back to stay. Thank you for continuing to support me and enjoy my creations. I love you all.

Fire And Ice

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We are like fire and ice..

My flaming heat…

To your freezing cold…

My kisses warm up your arctic soul…

Your caresses calms my scalding spirit…

Sparks fly into the frost as we lust for each other..

Entwined together we perform a sinful dance…

Destined Encounter.. Part 2..

Applying for internships had been driving Alana crazy for the past few months. It seemed most companies just weren’t looking to hire a student and pay them as well, for the ones which she managed to get interviews to, were either too far away or had bosses who seemed unbearable.

That is why she was so nervous this morning , on the back of a cab on her way to yet another interview. That and the fact that she hardly got a full night’s sleep since a week and half ago when she met Sebastian. He roamed her mind madly, the spark of electricity that shot through her when he took her hand in his big manly one, imagining how those hands would feel on other parts of her body, thinking about his pink, luscious lips and if they feel as soft as they look.

She forced herself to pull away from the thoughts of handsomely chiseled Sebastian and concentrate on her impending interview.

Cv..check..
Company address..check..
Phone..check..” she thought doing a mental list of all the things she might need.

Arriving at the office complex, she stepped out of the cab, then looked at herself on the glass doors one last time before quickly walking in heading directly for the elevators which were on the verge of closing.

Hold the lift please” She called out as she tried to run in her 6″ heels, failing miserably and flailing to the ground.

To her surprise she felt strong hands grab her by her waits and hoist her up right pulling her tightly against the savior’s rock hard body just as she was about to hit the floor face first. Lined along the stranger’s muscled body, Alana couldn’t help but want to stay a tad bit longer in those strong arms, for some reason she felt like they were built for her, like she belonged there. As he slowly set her on her feet once again, Alana felt a twinge of disappointment.

Alana, are you OK?”  Concern laced his voice as he spoke.

I’m f.. fine” her voice trailed off as she recognized that voice, that sexy, rich voice with an accented drawl. She looked up and fell right into his hypnotizing sea blue eyes.  Eyes which had been haunting her dreams and daily fantasies.

Sebastian, umm..hi.. thanks for saving me” she stuttered with a shy smile trying to pull herself together and collecting her possessions off the floor.

I want to be the one who saves you all time Alana” Sebastian said with a quiet resolve and Alana felt her heart skip a beat.

It seems we are destined to meet ma cherie. For a while there I thought I had lost my chance to get to know you better” He continued with a wicked gleam in his eyes.

uumm..i’m sorry what?” Alana asked, rather confused and finding it hard to concentrate on anything but  how absolutely gorgeous he looked. In a three piece designer suit that looked like it was designed on him he looked mouth wateringly good. He looked every bit the powerful business mogul she thought him to be.

Well, I tried to call you a few times, but never managed to get hold of you” He gave her a small fake pout and cast his eyes down.

Alana couldn’t help but laugh,giggle really, which made her feel like a love struck teenager. His fake pout made her want to nibble on his lower lip badly.

As they walked towards the elevators once again, she apologetically explained to him how she had lost her phone the week before when she was on her way home from a night out with her girlfriends and she had just gotten a new one which he obviously didn’t have the number for.

They got into the elevator, then as it began moving up Sebastian pressed the stop button and as he turned to face her she felt as though he could see directly into her soul. Had she been stuck in the small confined space with anyone else she would have been scared out of her mind. But standing there with this strange beautiful man it wasn’t fear she felt, she was excited yet soothed at the same time.

He walked towards her, stalking her, like a tiger towards its prey he came slowly and with a purpose, never once taking his eyes away from hers. Coming to a stop in front of her, a little into her personal space, crossing the line from two people who didn’t know each other to two people who were longing to touch each other, the air around them changed and became charged with raw sexual tension.

He put his hands on either sides of her ears, his palms flat on the walls of the elevator and his jaw clenched tight as if it was taking all his energy to fight the urge to feel her pressed against him.

Alana..” He breathed her name out causing a shiver to run down her spine.

God why does the way he say my name drench my underwear, he shouldn’t have such an effect on me“.. Alana thought to herself, slowly licking her lips and trying to get some sort of control over her rapid breathing and pounding heart.

What do I have to do to make you mine?” Sebastian asked with an unfathomable yearning in his voice..

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