There is a fire burning within my soul
Flamming, burning, destroying
Burning only for your
For your appreciation
For your acceptance
For your caress
I am starved for your look
There is a fire incinerating my insides
Utter desperation coats my heart
I yearn for you to put out the fire
But all you do is give me that bored smirk
As you throw gasoline into the fire
Sometimes I think i’m fine.. I think my world is completely normal.. Content even.. That I might even be happy one day.. But then reality crashes over me.. And i realize the place where my heart used to reside is empty.. All that is left is a dark void..
There is a million reasons why I should not love him..
Why I should not care..
Why I should not long, crave for him..
For his touch..For his kisses..
For his voice..For his love
Iv tried not feeling anything for him..
I have tried to convince myself to move on..
To forget about him..
Because he has probably forgotten about me now..
Probably moved on to the next girl..
But my heart and soul can’t help it..
He is permanently etched onto my heart..Onto my skin
I breathe through him..
I need him…
I feel a darkness..
A darkness within..
Like dark poisonous vines curving around a dying tree..
Utter and ultimate misery..
Twirls around my slow beating heart..
Swallowing me whole..
Devouring my inner being..
Is it possible for your heart to hurt so bad the pain feels physical.. For a heart to actually cry.. For you to feel like there’s a lead weight on your chest… To feel like you have been punched in the chest…. And that your insides are about to rupture and come out through your mouth… To feel like someone thrust their hand down your throat.. And started pulling your soul right from within you…
Please don’t leave me.. I’ll be good.. Better than before.. I need you… I crave you.. I will do anything you desire of me.. I will be anyone you need me to be.. I will follow you to the ends of the world.. Just please don’t leave.. Stay with me…