Take Me

I stand by the window..
Looking at the beautiful starry night sky..
Wishing he could feel my ache..
The longing in the pit of my being..
The uncontrollable urge to be taken..

Looking back at him laying peacefully..
A small smile on his face as he slumbers..
Off in dreamland he rests..
As I keep looking over his beautiful, manly body..
I wonder if he knows how he makes me feel..
I wonder if he knows how his touch makes me shiver..
If he knows how I wish we could be connected forever..
How his kisses melt me into a soaking dripping mess..
How his glance caresses my soul..

Oh how I crave him..
How I yearn for those slow wet trails of kisses across my neck..
How I’m needy for his calloused hands all over my body..
How I hanker for him to take me leisurely..
As if he has all the time in the world..
How I wish for the deep, slow, torturous thrusts..
Looking deep into my soul.. Stealing it away with a simple perusal..
How I desire the slow ascension to the explosion..
Building, and taking us higher with every second..
How I hunger for that sexy, hoarse way he whisper my name..
As we explode into oblivion in each other’s arms..
Oh how I need to be taken..

Found…

You walk into a crowded room..
You search..scanning the faces in the room..
Until your eyes find mine..
Then time stills..
The world stops spinning..
I stop breathing..
I’m found..
I’m alive..
I’m loved..
And possessed..
And excited..
And nervous..
Like its been forever..
An eternety really..
Forever and a hundred days..
Since I have been discovered..
Since you have looked at me..
Since you have explored me..
But in reality..
It has been but an hour..

I Want To Fall..

I want to fall..
To fall so suddenly and so fast..
To fall in love so hard it hurts..
To fall maddenly over the peak I would break..
To stay up all night talking about things..
Or maybe not talking at all..
Just being..
I want to claw across him..
Crawl into him..
To learn his every secret..
His every flaw..
His every thought..
His every story..
His every dream..
I want to be in one of those dreams..
To be all he dreams about..
All he thinks about..
I want to be one of those secrets..
To be all his words..
To be intoxicated by him..
to feel crazed by him..
To be wanton and out of control..
I want to fall so deep..
So deep it makes me want to do everything..
Or maybe nothing..
To be helpless in his love..
To fall and never get up..

She longs…

She longs for love without fear
Love without mistrust
Love without secret and lies
Love without expectations
She longs for the unimaginable..
The unrealistic..

Missing you..

Sometimes I think i’m safely in your arms..
I think my world is completely whole..
Happy even.. 
That I might wake up to see your handsome face..
To feel your soft lips on mine..
Your calloused hands  softly caressing my body..
But then reality crashes down over me..
And i realize that the place where my heart used to reside is empty..
I realize you are nowhere to be found, no longer with me..
And I remember you are a million miles away from me..
And I start to miss you all over again..

Reality…

Sometimes I think i’m fine..
I think my world is completely normal..
Content even.. 
That I might even be happy one day..
But then reality crashes over me..
And i realize the place where my heart used to reside is empty..
All that is left is a dark void..

Number one….

One day..
One far away day..
one lonely day..

Just one day…

I will finally be someone’s number one..

It might not be today..

It might not be  tomorrow..

Might not even be in the next ten years..

But I have to believe…
I have to hope and pray..

That one day..

Someone will love me enough..
Need me enough…
Adore me enough..

To render me their number one..

Aching without you..

When you are not with me

When you are far away from me

I feel lost…

Like my head is spinning..

Like I cannot breath..

I feel a hollowness deep within me..

A space in my heart..

I feel a deep aching within my soul..

I Long To Go Back…

I wish..

I just yearn..

That I could go back..

Travel back to a time..

When I used to be free..

A time when I used to be brave..

Unafraid to live..

Fearless to explore…

Open to shamelessly love..

Swallow Me Whole…

I feel a darkness..
A darkness within..
Surrounding me..
Like dark poisonous vines curving around a dying tree..
Pain..
Utter and ultimate misery..
Twirls around my slow beating heart..
Swallowing me whole..
Devouring my inner being..