Number one….

One day..
One far away day..
one lonely day..
Just one day…
I will finally be someone’s number one..
It might not be today..
It might not be  tomorrow..
Might not even be in the next ten years..
But I have to believe…
I have to hope and pray..
That one day..
Someone will love me enough..
Need me enough…
Adore me enough..
To render me their number one..
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First Touch…

“Iv never done this before”.. I whispered more to myself than to her..
“I’m glad i’m your first” She murmured..
Distracted by the sound of my dress hitting the floor..
She watched me…No.. Gazed at me..
Eyes glazed over in lust..Pure unadulterated desire..
Taking everything in as if in a trance..
As if I’m the sexiest vixen alive..
She sat quietly as I took off every stitch of clothing..
Letting them fall one by one..
Exposing myself to her hungry stare..
Until I stood in front of her with just my heels..
As she strolled towards me.. Prowled more like
Focused, sexy and confident..
Like a panther stalking it’s prey..
Ready for the take down..
A slight shiver of anticipation runs though my body..
As she stops in front of me she ran her hands over me..
Leaving goose bumps trailing behind her caress..
Starting at the nape of my neck.. Down my arms..
Touching the side of my breast.. Barely grazing my nipples..
“So beautiful” She said sounding amazed..
“Am I really all she says i am” my mind starts to wonder…
She moves her hands down my waist..
Grabbing my butt and squeezing roughly..
Moaning deep in her throat before her soft perfect lips crashed down on mine…
All thought dissipated…
All that mattered was this feeling.. This moment..

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Stay With Me..

Please don’t leave me..
I’ll be good.. Better than before..
I need you… I crave you..
I will do anything you desire of me..
I will be anyone you need me to be..
I will follow you to the ends of the world..
Just please don’t leave..
Stay with me…

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Enough..

Iv always had a fear of not being enough..
Not pretty enough..
Not smart enough…
Not successful enough..
Not adventurous enough..
Not outgoing enough..
Not lovable enough..
But you..
You make me feel ..
Like a genius..

Like a goddess..
Like the life of the party..
Loved, cherished, adored, cared for, protected, desired..
You make me feel like I am all that you will ever need..
Like I am your whole world..
Like your life would never be complete without me..
Like your life would be without color..
Without light..
You make me feel like I am more than enough..
Like i’m special..One of a kind..
And for that I will love you till my last breath..

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Don’t Tame Me..

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They see me roar..
They wonder why I soar..
They wonder why I am..
The way that I am..
They question why I live the way I do..
They marvel at my every move..
They look at my being..
My wild hair..
My passionate personality..
My outrageous clothes..
The unexpected actions..
They see my free spirit parading..
The animal within displayed..
I tell them don’t judge me..
Don’t try to change me..
Don’t try to tame me..
I’m a lost cause..
Either fly with me..
Or watch me rise..

I Want To Live…

I’m so sick and tired..

Sick and tired of existing…
I want to live..
Not just exist..
Drifting in and out of days..
Doing whats expected of me..
School, University, Work, Marriage, Kids..
Until one day I finally die..
I feel drained, hollow, devoid of meaning..
I walk and travel the long road..
I fly, swim, drive, paddle..
Searching, aching for a path to take..
Searching for a purpose..
Searching for happiness..Not just contentment..
I want to run far from home and get lost in the wilderness..
I want to jump into the darkness and face the demons..
I want to dive into the ocean and discover the unimaginable..
I want to lose myself in life.. get drunk off her tits..
I want to feel alive..
I mean really live… Not just exist..
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I Long For You..

We used to have everything..
I your Cinderella..
You my Prince Charming..

Oh mi amor..

Laying under the night sky..
Counting stars and making love..

Mi corazon…

Embracing blissfully and talking till the sun comes out..
Walking hand in hand and kissing on the streets..

Oh il mio angelo…

Living in our own beautiful, magical world..
Whispering “I love yous”..

My Darling…

Wherever you are..
Dream a little dream of me..
As my mind and heart lingers on you..
Sweet dreams with bitter longings haunt me..

Mon cher…

In a world with out you I am lost..
I wish to feel you with me, on me, around me..

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Tainted..

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My mind is a torturous hole
Never leaving me on my own
Forever insisting on ripping my soul apart
Always pondering though out scenario or another
One “what if” or the other
One painful memory or another
I am eternally sucked into my abyss of a brain
Leaving my spirit stained with blotches of sadness
How am I ever to survive..

A Whisper..

“Please don’t go”..We whisper to the sun..
Spring flowers bloom in the distance..
A cool breeze calms as we walk past the beach..
Swishing and crashing the waves carry on oblivious..
Hands clasped around one another..
No worries in the world..
Evening closes by and the sun slowly slips away..
Staring up at the darkening sky..
And we know what is coming..
The month of love is upon us..
And dwell in it we shall..

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Oh Sweetheart..

 

Love me tender..
Love me whole..
Love me entirely..
Love me deeply..
Love me thoroughly..
Love me bare..
Love me with a flaming urge..
Love me now..
Love me tomorrow..
Love me forever..

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