One far away day..
one lonely day..
I have to hope and pray..
Need me enough…
Adore me enough..
“Iv never done this before”.. I whispered more to myself than to her..
“I’m glad i’m your first” She murmured..
Distracted by the sound of my dress hitting the floor..
She watched me…No.. Gazed at me..
Eyes glazed over in lust..Pure unadulterated desire..
Taking everything in as if in a trance..
As if I’m the sexiest vixen alive..
She sat quietly as I took off every stitch of clothing..
Letting them fall one by one..
Exposing myself to her hungry stare..
Until I stood in front of her with just my heels..
As she strolled towards me.. Prowled more like
Focused, sexy and confident..
Like a panther stalking it’s prey..
Ready for the take down..
A slight shiver of anticipation runs though my body..
As she stops in front of me she ran her hands over me..
Leaving goose bumps trailing behind her caress..
Starting at the nape of my neck.. Down my arms..
Touching the side of my breast.. Barely grazing my nipples..
“So beautiful” She said sounding amazed..
“Am I really all she says i am” my mind starts to wonder…
She moves her hands down my waist..
Grabbing my butt and squeezing roughly..
Moaning deep in her throat before her soft perfect lips crashed down on mine…
All thought dissipated…
All that mattered was this feeling.. This moment..
Iv always had a fear of not being enough..
Not pretty enough..
Not smart enough…
Not successful enough..
Not adventurous enough..
Not outgoing enough..
Not lovable enough..
You make me feel ..
Like a genius..
Like a goddess..
Like the life of the party..
Loved, cherished, adored, cared for, protected, desired..
You make me feel like I am all that you will ever need..
Like I am your whole world..
Like your life would never be complete without me..
Like your life would be without color..
You make me feel like I am more than enough..
Like i’m special..One of a kind..
And for that I will love you till my last breath..
They see me roar..
They wonder why I soar..
They wonder why I am..
The way that I am..
They question why I live the way I do..
They marvel at my every move..
They look at my being..
My wild hair..
My passionate personality..
My outrageous clothes..
The unexpected actions..
They see my free spirit parading..
The animal within displayed..
I tell them don’t judge me..
Don’t try to change me..
Don’t try to tame me..
I’m a lost cause..
Either fly with me..
Or watch me rise..
I’m so sick and tired..
We used to have everything..
I your Cinderella..
You my Prince Charming..
Oh mi amor..
Laying under the night sky..
Counting stars and making love..
Embracing blissfully and talking till the sun comes out..
Walking hand in hand and kissing on the streets..
Oh il mio angelo…
Living in our own beautiful, magical world..
Whispering “I love yous”..
Wherever you are..
Dream a little dream of me..
As my mind and heart lingers on you..
Sweet dreams with bitter longings haunt me..
In a world with out you I am lost..
I wish to feel you with me, on me, around me..
My mind is a torturous hole
Never leaving me on my own
Forever insisting on ripping my soul apart
Always pondering though out scenario or another
One “what if” or the other
One painful memory or another
I am eternally sucked into my abyss of a brain
Leaving my spirit stained with blotches of sadness
How am I ever to survive..
“Please don’t go”..We whisper to the sun..
Spring flowers bloom in the distance..
A cool breeze calms as we walk past the beach..
Swishing and crashing the waves carry on oblivious..
Hands clasped around one another..
No worries in the world..
Evening closes by and the sun slowly slips away..
Staring up at the darkening sky..
And we know what is coming..
The month of love is upon us..
And dwell in it we shall..