Take Me

I stand by the window..
Looking at the beautiful starry night sky..
Wishing he could feel my ache..
The longing in the pit of my being..
The uncontrollable urge to be taken.
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Looking back at him laying peacefully..
A small smile on his face as he slumbers..

Off in dreamland he rests..
As I keep looking over his beautiful, manly body.
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I wonder if he knows how he makes me feel..
I wonder if he knows how his touch makes me shiver..
If he knows how I wish we could be connected forever..
How his kisses melt me into a soaking dripping mess..
How his glance caresses my soul..

Oh how I crave him..
How I yearn for those slow wet trails of kisses across my neck..
How I’m needy for his calloused hands all over my body..
How I hanker for him to take me leisurely..
As if he has all the time in the world..
How I wish for the deep, slow, torturous thrusts..
Looking deep into my soul.. Stealing it away with a simple perusal..
How I desire the slow ascension to the explosion..
Building, and taking us higher with every second..
How I hunger for that sexy, hoarse way he whisper my name..
As we explode into oblivion in each other’s arms..

Oh how I need to be taken..

light

Even in the darkest of day..
Even in the gloomiest of nights..
Even in the shoddiest of seasons..
Your smile is all I need..
To light up my soul..

And then You disappeared

I thought we were friends
I thought I could trust you
I thought you understood me
I thought you knew me
I thought you heard me
I thought you saw me for me
And then you touched me
Then you kissed me
Then you held me close
Then you lay in my arms
Lay in between my legs
Then you told me I was sexy
Then you told me I could be yours..
If only for a moment in time..
And then you had me..
Tasted me.. Devoured me..
Going so deep I didn’t know where you ended or where I began..
And once you had all of me..
You said nothing would change..

And then you disappeared..

My Heart

My heart hurts..
My head lays heavy..
My chest feels empty..
My hands shake..
My lungs cant draw breath..

My eyes stay wet..
Is this what heart break is..

More

She gives him all her being
He takes and gives nothing
She gives him more

My First Heart Break

They say a mother’s love is all encompassing
A mother’s love is power
A mother’s love gives sustenance
A mother’s love heals wounds
A mother’s love embraces the heart and soul

She birthed me
She raised me
She fed me
She loved me
But never as much as she did my kin

She birthed her before me
She put her on a pedestal
She nourished her
Mind body and soul
She adored her
More than she ever did me

They say a mother’s love is all encompassing
But my mother’s love is fickle and conditional


A mother’s love gives power
But my mother’s love makes me weak and frail


A mother’s love gives sustenance
But my mother’s love leaves me yearning and famished


A mother’s love heals all wounds
But my mother’s love breaks me and creates deep gashes


A mother’s love embraces your heart and soul
But my mother’s love shatters my heart and cracks open my soul



Image from an unknown artist

A single thought

I sit here watching you
Looking at your face
I suddenly realize
You are not so handsome after all

I sit here listening to you speak
Listening but not really hearing you
Then I realize
Your words aren’t so sweet after all

I sit here seeing you move
Watching your hands
And realize suddenly
Your touch isn’t so soft and affectionate after all

I sit here peering at you
gazing deep into your eyes
And I realize suddenly
Your eyes aren’t so deep and loving after all

I sit here wondering
Maybe, just maybe, you are not it
Maybe you are not my soul mate
Maybe I’m not in love with you after all

I sit here saddened by a thought
A thought I’m having for the first time since we met
A thought sending shocks through my being
A thought that maybe
 I just might have to break your heart
And in turn break my own heart

Speak

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My soul speaks to you…
Your ego speaks to me..
You look into my eyes and you see unfathomable love..
I look into your eyes and all I see is cold lust…
You search my heart and all you find is longing..
I search your heart and all I find is emptiness…
You touch my body and you want to do like you did a hundred before me..
I touch your body and I want yours to be the only body I touch..
You need someone there to make you feel good about yourself..
I need someone there to love and complete me…
You open your mouth and all that flows out is vanity and lies..
I open my mouth and all that flows out is endless honesty..
You need to leave but you won’t because you are addicted to the sex…
I need to leave but I won’t because I am addicted to the thought of you loving me..
My lips speak to you and all you want to do is have a taste…
Your lips speak and all I want to do is be your girl for eternity…
I speak to you and all that comes out is question after question..
You speak to me and not a single answer makes an appearance..
I cant get enough of your sweet meaningless words…
You cant get enough of my soft touch and calming voice..
You spin your web of lies and trap me in..
I spin my web of naivety and hope and try to trap you…
We are forever stuck in a place that neither of us can escape…