My heart hurts..
My head lays heavy..
My chest feels empty..
My hands shake..
My lungs cant draw breath..

My eyes stay wet..
Is this what heart break is..

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She gives him all her being
He takes and gives nothing
She gives him more

My First Heart Break

They say a mother’s love is all encompassing
A mother’s love is power
A mother’s love gives sustenance
A mother’s love heals wounds
A mother’s love embraces the heart and soul

She birthed me
She raised me
She fed me
She loved me
But never as much as she did my kin

She birthed her before me
She put her on a pedestal
She nourished her
Mind body and soul
She adored her
More than she ever did me

They say a mother’s love is all encompassing
But my mother’s love is fickle and conditional


A mother’s love gives power
But my mother’s love makes me weak and frail


A mother’s love gives sustenance
But my mother’s love leaves me yearning and famished


A mother’s love heals all wounds
But my mother’s love breaks me and creates deep gashes


A mother’s love embraces your heart and soul
But my mother’s love shatters my heart and cracks open my soul



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A single thought

I sit here watching you
Looking at your face
I suddenly realize
You are not so handsome after all

I sit here listening to you speak
Listening but not really hearing you
Then I realize
Your words aren’t so sweet after all

I sit here seeing you move
Watching your hands
And realize suddenly
Your touch isn’t so soft and affectionate after all

I sit here peering at you
gazing deep into your eyes
And I realize suddenly
Your eyes aren’t so deep and loving after all

I sit here wondering
Maybe, just maybe, you are not it
Maybe you are not my soul mate
Maybe I’m not in love with you after all

I sit here saddened by a thought
A thought I’m having for the first time since we met
A thought sending shocks through my being
A thought that maybe
 I just might have to break your heart
And in turn break my own heart

Speak

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My soul speaks to you…
Your ego speaks to me..
You look into my eyes and you see unfathomable love..
I look into your eyes and all I see is cold lust…
You search my heart and all you find is longing..
I search your heart and all I find is emptiness…
You touch my body and you want to do like you did a hundred before me..
I touch your body and I want yours to be the only body I touch..
You need someone there to make you feel good about yourself..
I need someone there to love and complete me…
You open your mouth and all that flows out is vanity and lies..
I open my mouth and all that flows out is endless honesty..
You need to leave but you won’t because you are addicted to the sex…
I need to leave but I won’t because I am addicted to the thought of you loving me..
My lips speak to you and all you want to do is have a taste…
Your lips speak and all I want to do is be your girl for eternity…
I speak to you and all that comes out is question after question..
You speak to me and not a single answer makes an appearance..
I cant get enough of your sweet meaningless words…
You cant get enough of my soft touch and calming voice..
You spin your web of lies and trap me in..
I spin my web of naivety and hope and try to trap you…
We are forever stuck in a place that neither of us can escape…

Yours..

She is yours..
Your woman..
Your girl..
Your lover..
Your cheer leader..
Your forever…

Treat her like she deserves..
Protect her…Cherish her..Adore her..Respect her..
Or watch as someone else does..

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Shadow..

Sometimes…
Sometimes I wish I could be your shadow..
To trail behind you like a lost soul trying to catch on to its body..
Just so that I can get a chance…..
A fruitless, mindless chance…
To simply exist within the same space as you..

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Kiss me..

me

Kiss my lips..
And you will have me for a day..
Kiss my body..
And you will have me for a night..
Kiss my eyes..
And you will chase away my tears..
Kiss my forehead..
And you will slaughter my nightmares..
Kiss my heart..
And you will own me for a year..
Kiss my soul..
And I’m yours for a lifetime..

Found…

You walk into a crowded room..
You search..scanning the faces in the room..
Until your eyes find mine..
Then time stills..
The world stops spinning..
I stop breathing..
I’m found..
I’m alive..
I’m loved..
And possessed..
And excited..
And nervous..
Like its been forever..
An eternety really..
Forever and a hundred days..
Since I have been discovered..
Since you have looked at me..
Since you have explored me..
But in reality..
It has been but an hour..

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