I sit here watching you Looking at your face I suddenly realize You are not so handsome after all
I sit here listening to you speak Listening but not really hearing you Then I realize Your words aren’t so sweet after all
I sit here seeing you move Watching your hands And realize suddenly Your touch isn’t so soft and affectionate after all
I sit here peering at you gazing deep into your eyes And I realize suddenly Your eyes aren’t so deep and loving after all
I sit here wondering Maybe, just maybe, you are not it Maybe you are not my soul mate Maybe I’m not in love with you after all
I sit here saddened by a thought A thought I’m having for the first time since we met A thought sending shocks through my being A thought that maybe I just might have to break your heart And in turn break my own heart
My soul speaks to you…
Your ego speaks to me..
You look into my eyes and you see unfathomable love..
I look into your eyes and all I see is cold lust…
You search my heart and all you find is longing..
I search your heart and all I find is emptiness…
You touch my body and you want to do like you did a hundred before me..
I touch your body and I want yours to be the only body I touch..
You need someone there to make you feel good about yourself..
I need someone there to love and complete me…
You open your mouth and all that flows out is vanity and lies..
I open my mouth and all that flows out is endless honesty..
You need to leave but you won’t because you are addicted to the sex…
I need to leave but I won’t because I am addicted to the thought of you loving me..
My lips speak to you and all you want to do is have a taste…
Your lips speak and all I want to do is be your girl for eternity…
I speak to you and all that comes out is question after question..
You speak to me and not a single answer makes an appearance..
I cant get enough of your sweet meaningless words…
You cant get enough of my soft touch and calming voice..
You spin your web of lies and trap me in..
I spin my web of naivety and hope and try to trap you…
We are forever stuck in a place that neither of us can escape…
Sometimes… Sometimes I wish I could be your shadow.. To trail behind you like a lost soul trying to catch on to its body.. Just so that I can get a chance….. A fruitless, mindless chance… To simply exist within the same space as you..
Kiss my lips..
And you will have me for a day..
Kiss my body..
And you will have me for a night..
Kiss my eyes..
And you will chase away my tears..
Kiss my forehead..
And you will slaughter my nightmares..
Kiss my heart..
And you will own me for a year..
Kiss my soul..
And I’m yours for a lifetime..
You walk into a crowded room..
You search..scanning the faces in the room..
Until your eyes find mine..
Then time stills..
The world stops spinning..
I stop breathing..
Like its been forever..
An eternety really..
Forever and a hundred days..
Since I have been discovered..
Since you have looked at me..
Since you have explored me..
But in reality..
It has been but an hour..