Speak

My soul speaks to you…
Your ego speaks to me..
You look into my eyes and you see unfathomable love..
I look into your eyes and all I see is cold lust…
You search my heart and all you find is longing..
I search your heart and all I find is emptiness…
You touch my body and you want to do like you did a hundred before me..
I touch your body and I want yours to be the only body I touch..
You need someone there to make you feel good about yourself..
I need someone there to love and complete me…
You open your mouth and all that flows out is vanity and lies..
I open my mouth and all that flows out is endless honesty..
You need to leave but you won’t because you are addicted to the sex…
I need to leave but I won’t because I am addicted to the thought of you loving me..
My lips speak to you and all you want to do is have a taste…
Your lips speak and all I want to do is be your girl for eternity…
I speak to you and all that comes out is question after question..
You speak to me and not a single answer makes an appearance..
I cant get enough of your sweet meaningless words…
You cant get enough of my soft touch and calming voice..
You spin your web of lies and trap me in..
I spin my web of naivety and hope and try to trap you…
We are forever stuck in a place that neither of us can escape…

Reasons..

You are the reason I draw breathes
The reason I open my eyes
The reason my heart beats a little too fast
The reason I can smell the blossoms
The reason I hear birds chip in the morning
The reason I smile
The reason my lips tingle with just a slight touch from yours
The reason my spine curves with just a stroke of your finger
You are the reason my body lights up with just a glance from your mesmerizing eyes
The reason my toes curl up in ecstasy every time I hear your deep baritone
You are the reason
My reason for everything

My confession…

I have a confession ..
Anywhere we are…
Anytime..
I want to be where ever you are
I want to see whatever you see..
To feel Everything you feel..
To swim in your happiness..
To drown in your sadness and misery..
To be part of every adventure.. Every moment..
To be a part of you..
To live in your soul….
To walk around your heart..
I want to know how to love you…
How to make you smile..
How to make you cry..
How to make you lose your mind..
How to drive you mad with passion..
How to bring out the beast in you…
How to make desire pour out of you..
And pour onto me..
How to make you violent..
I want to know every..
Because I am trapped..
Trapped within myself when you cross my mind..
A slave to a master..
I endure only pain..
Committed to a life of loneliness and despair..
Just a body with an empty soul..

I feel..

Sometimes I feel.
I don’t mean to..
Hell, most times I try not to..
But I can not help it..
When you are near me I feel..
Because you make my world spin a little faster..
Make my dreams seem a little closer..
And then I feel everything..
I feel you deep inside me…
I wish for you to take me..
To make me yours..
Slowly..All day… How ever you want..
But you don’t see me..
Don’t even know I exist..
And it hurts..
It cuts me deep..
Burns like a furnace..
Like you are flaying the skin off my bones..
But my heart doesn’t listen..
When you are around me…
I fall apart…
I can barely breathe…
I still feel too much..

Sometimes…

Sometimes I look at your pictures..
Our pictures….
Going through each and every one of them..
I have tried to delete them.. I really have..
But that part of my heart that still belongs to you just won’t let me..
One by one..I explore them..
Investigate them..
Looking at happier times..
Seeing a time when you used to adore me..
To still need me..
To still miss me..
To look at me like I was your whole world..
A time when a day wouldn’t pass without you telling me I was yours..
Sometimes memories of us play in my head..
Over and over like a never ending reel..
Torturing my very being..
Because I know this reel will never be expanded..
Added to with new memories..
Sometimes I try to not think about you..
Because when I do I lose myself in an emotion filled tide..
I disappear into a dark abyss of utter pain..
My soul aches for you..
My heart breaks into a million pieces
My body yearns for your touch..
Sometimes….. Just sometimes…
I wish you still belonged to me…

Drowning…

Is it possible for your heart to hurt so bad the pain feels physical..
For a heart to actually cry..
For you to feel like there’s a lead weight on your chest…
To feel like you have been punched in the chest….
And that your insides are about to rupture and come out through your mouth…
To feel like someone thrust their hand down your throat..
And started pulling your soul right from within you…

Damned..

Rocking back and forth..
Trapped in the cornner sobbing..
Trying to outrun the nightmare..
Incubus won’t vanish..
Tormenting me day and night..
Keeping me in the hallows of fear..
Eternally held captive..
Danmed to live in the horrid darkness..

The End Is Near…

The end is upon us

I can feel it throbbing through my bones

I can see the devotion fading from your eyes

I can sense the poison of dislike pulsating through my veins

The bond we took time to build is wilting into nothingness

Forever we have tried to keep it alive, to keep the fire blazing

The more i accelerate the fire, the more you throw sand on the fire

We forever work against each other in this fight

Is it not right for us to just throw in the towel

Is our union worth the brawl