My Birthday In Nigh!

Time..Flows swiftly..
Sometimes slowly..
Passing me by..
Stringing me along..
pushing me through the gates..
Is it a lowly day..
Is it a decade..
My soul feels awfully glum..
Am i alone..
For i feel deserted, secluded, desolate..
Oh how i have grown to loathe this day..
This epoch that i was born on..

My birthday is tomorrow and i’m a continent away from my familia, so i’m kind of feel extra lonely this year..

Girl In The Mirror

Look into my eyes

Do you see what i see

Do you see the torment

Your glimpse is so hypnotic I ache for you

Felling a dark twinge deep inside me

Completely mystified I turn away

Not being courageous enough to gaze into those cold eyes

Unbearably soul less, they suck me in

Filling me wholly and utterly with agony

Becoming one with those eyes i no longer exist

No longer know the difference

Are you me..

 Am I you….

Am I hallucinating….

Will I ever know…

Incurable Romantic

As you lie here on my arms

Sleeping like an angle

Enjoying the rocking and rhythm of my body

I question what is on your pure mind

So simple and untouched by humanity and the world

Your cries so painful and devastating

Your laughter so jovial and carefree

ooh my child.. how i wish i could keep it so

Protect you from all the peril of this planet

I will forever hold you in a tight embrace

And i love you with senseless passion

Because you are my reason for waking up in the morning, my gift, my light, my life

Because of you i am an incurable romantic…….

Paranoia….

Swallows me whole and leaves me fetal 

Paranoia

Twirls me up in a tornado of emotions

Paranoia

Crawls through my throat and rips my insides inside out

Paranoia

Infects me with queasiness and tears me apart

Paranoia

Sets me on a wild goose chase searching for my soul

Paranoia

Makes me want to cleave my eyes out because i dont want to witness my demise

Paranoia

Is it all in my mind or does the horror exist??

I AM A Woman!!

I am a treasure

I am a diamond in the rough

I am beautiful

I am strong

I am a nation builder

I am a family creator

I am a peace maker

I am the keeper of the key

I am a nurturer 

I am a mother, a sister, a wife

I give my whole heart and take very little

If your days are dark, i shall bring light onto them

I take away the base of all pain and forever give faith

Like sweet tantalizing rain i sprinkle love and joy

I am the source of all that is good, colorful and delightful

I AM A WOMAN

These 3 beautiful people..

These Three beautiful people

Radiate my life and fill it with warmth

Give me the courage to break the norms

Always there for me once my life stumbles upon some thorns

One of these people is my protector

When i get into trouble he is my inspector

When ever my life is in turmoil he is my shelter

One of these people is my partner in crime

For me she would never hesitate to spend every dime

Our relationship is beyond sublime

To her i tell all that is in my soul

One of them gave me existence

When ever i crumble she gives me guidance

With the finality of her love there is no distance

These three people are my family

My sister who is always there to talk to

My brother who is my shield against all things bad

My mother who gives me a reason for living

These three beautiful people are my guardian angles..

Who Decided??

From the beginning of time

Beauty has been defined the same way

Long silky hair

Light skin.. the lighter the better

Big breasts, the bigger the better

Long legs that go on forever

Slim modelesque statute 

But who decided what true beauty is

Why is it that we have been bombarded with images of the perfect woman

Why is it that women do everything they can to be

 the desire of every man

Getting breast implants

Living in the gym to stay slender

Getting surgery and buying face products to look young

Little girls starving themselves to be the hottest in the class

Wearing skimpy clothes because of what they see on television and on magazines

Growing up too fast and wanting to dance on poles because it seems like the cool thing to do

Married women struggling to stay sexy

Because they are scared their husbands will find prettier younger girls

Why do we long to be yearned for by men 

Why is it that we were made to be different

And who decided that certain women are beautiful and others are not??

Somewhere Over The Rainbow…

somewhere over the rainbow

lies  a paradise filled with joy, happiness and laughter

filled with love, hugs and kisses

Butterflies soar in the air in all colors, blue, yellow, green

Eyes Spackle in the sunshine emitting light and freedom

Flowers bloom.. bees and birds take wing in the picturesque sky

Fountains flow silky with crystal clear waters

People drink in delight glowy, sweet drinks

Somewhere over the rainbow

Time stands still in sheer beauty of the radiance

Goddesses stretch out in pure white robes

Lovers embrace on the fresh green grass

oh how i wish i was over the rainbow

sipping in the utter bliss

Abyss….

I live in padlocked terror

Is it today is it tomorrow

Is it the day that’s going to be my sorrow

Am i being punished for being the creature that i am

Hard times come and drag me down

Down into the deepest scum filled gulf

In a state of abyss here i slouch

slain in my journey to survival

My soul tumbles into the deep void

Waiting for the ogres and trolls to come 

To come and gather my soulless bag of severed carcass

Distant Love..

How delicious is the gift of love

Of a sweet embrace at love’s beginning

When two hearts intertwine with affection and adoration

As the bliss of desire and longing builds a wall of devotion and commitment

Ooh how I yearn with hunger for your tender gaze

How I ache for your doting prose

How I yearn with thirst for your warm caress

If only you were not so far away..