Bring Back The Light..

I knew light…
Danced around the light…
Rejoiced in the radiance…
Basked under it’s luminasity…
Until you came around…
And stole my light away…
Consumed it right from beneath me…
Leaving only a shardowy gloom…
Bathing me in your darkness…

Toxic Angst..

You are a stiff drug for me..
Toxic and acidic to my heart

Devouring me up from the inside out..

I’m in a constant fog..

Trying but failing desperately to remember my life before you..

You blind me from seeing the rest of the world..

Fueling my frantic need for you..

My dependency of you is an ache..

An ache which morphs into a physical pain..

When i’m away from you I can not bare it..

You open my rib cage and leave my soul exposed..

My core drilled and etched away..

You are my needle, my anxiety, my morphine..

You unnaturally enjoys my suffering..

Watching me sadistically and giving me a wicked smile..

Your distance brings about a state of confusion, perplexity, mystery..

A feeling of deep and utter loss..

Feelings of bereavement bring about withdrawal symptoms..

And I have no way of preventing this angst.. 

Tainted..

My mind is a torturous hole
Never leaving me on my own
Forever insisting on ripping my soul apart
Always pondering though out scenario or another
One “what if” or the other
One painful memory or another
I am eternally sucked into my abyss of a brain
Leaving my spirit stained with blotches of sadness
How am I ever to survive..

To be…Or Not To Be..

My life..
My love..
My only one..
Or so i thought..
You, my dream,my fantasy..
No longer my reality..
My source of light,of joy, of love, of all things wonderful..
Now my cause for pain, for heartache, for pure torture..
You, who captured my soul, my heart in beautiful rose nets..
Now leaves me captured in torment, in black vines of death..
With no hope, no faith of survival..
I crave for your adoration, your touch, your voice..
Because you are mine no more..
I long for your memories to leave me..
Night in and day out your face haunts my existence..

He Breathes..

He breathes..

Taking in the cool night breeze..

Occasionally  giving me a glance..

Distant, unattached, uninvolved..

Distracted by the pretty damsels..

Dancing around..

Carefree in their flimsy summer dresses..

He breathes..

Occasionally drizzling me with attention..

Spraying me with affection..

Continuously ignoring my longing..

He drinks me up and sucks me dry..

Then spits me out and stomps on me..

Before taking his leave..

All that’s left is a whisper of me..

Dislodged..

Frayed..

Naked Poetry..

Naked….

I lie here yours for the taking…

Bare…

I lay it all out..

Exposed..

Explore as I know you desire..

Uncovered..

You leave scars on my soul..

Stripped…

You hackle away into oblivion..

Empty…

I no longer crave to subsist…

Vacant..

Eyes lost in a planet of no hope…

Girl In The Mirror

Look into my eyes

Do you see what i see

Do you see the torment

Your glimpse is so hypnotic I ache for you

Felling a dark twinge deep inside me

Completely mystified I turn away

Not being courageous enough to gaze into those cold eyes

Unbearably soul less, they suck me in

Filling me wholly and utterly with agony

Becoming one with those eyes i no longer exist

No longer know the difference

Are you me..

 Am I you….

Am I hallucinating….

Will I ever know…

Bombshell….

You make me want to kill a part of me

Just so that i wont have to feel like this

How am i supposed to shine and illuminate

When all you do is suck up all the light like a black hole

Don’t tell me it is nothing

It is a total betrayal of everything that we are

You walk besides me, completely unaware of your hold on me

What we did we did together, yet you keep tearing my heart apart

And it exploded my whole world..

Like a bombshell.

Battle Of The Souls….

 

The night is dark, as terrifying demons lie in wait

I hold my armor up and prepare for battle 

I put my soul at risk to destroy the monsters running in the shadows

Combat goes on for eternity under the gloomy moon

Limbs are torn and bones are crushed

Eyes glaring like empty holes on their faces

Until daylight comes and they disappear into nothingness like they never where

Leaving only whispers and veils of the war before

 

Lost The Light To Our Love..

You used to be my sunshine

The light that shines my path

But now you are the darkness that glooms above

The shadows passing behind me

I yearn for your deep, husky, sinister embraces

The small glow of light that guides me to the future is slowly blowing off

Now I’m left here all alone

In the dark

Unable to find my way

Locked away to  rot forever in this senseless abyss of sever loneliness