My confession…

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I have a confession ..
Anywhere we are…
Anytime..
I want to be where ever you are
I want to see whatever you see..
To feel Everything you feel..
To swim in your happiness..
To drown in your sadness and misery..
To be part of every adventure.. Every moment..
To be a part of you..
To live in your soul….
To walk around your heart..
I want to know how to love you…
How to make you smile..
How to make you cry..
How to make you lose your mind..
How to drive you mad with passion..
How to bring out the beast in you…
How to make desire pour out of you..
And pour onto me..
How to make you violent..
I want to know every..
Because I am trapped..
Trapped within myself when you cross my mind..
A slave to a master..
I endure only pain..

Committed to a life of loneliness and despair..
Just a body with an empty soul..

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Toxic Angst..

You are a stiff drug for me..
Toxic and acidic to my heart

Devouring me up from the inside out..
I’m in a constant fog..
Trying but failing desperately to remember my life before you..
You blind me from seeing the rest of the world..
Fueling my frantic need for you..
My dependency of you is an ache..
An ache which morphs into a physical pain..
When i’m away from you I can not bare it..
You open my rib cage and leave my soul exposed..
My core drilled and etched away..
You are my needle, my anxiety, my morphine..
You unnaturally enjoys my suffering..
Watching me sadistically and giving me a wicked smile..
Your distance brings about a state of confusion, perplexity, mystery..
A feeling of deep and utter loss..
Feelings of bereavement bring about withdrawal symptoms..
And I have no way of preventing this angst.. 

gal