When you are not with me
When you are far away from me
I feel lost…
Like my head is spinning..
Like I cannot breath..
I feel a hollowness deep within me..
A space in my heart..
I feel a deep aching within my soul..
Is it possible for your heart to hurt so bad the pain feels physical..
For a heart to actually cry..
For you to feel like there’s a lead weight on your chest…
To feel like you have been punched in the chest….
And that your insides are about to rupture and come out through your mouth…
To feel like someone thrust their hand down your throat..
And started pulling your soul right from within you…
I wish I could plug a lovometer into my heart..
Or even place a stethoscope near on my chest…
Or simply put your hand on my chest..
Just so you can feel me..
Gage my love..
So you can know how you make me burn..
How my heart aches and breaks when I can’t have you..
So that you know when I tell you I miss you, I need you.. I want you..
What I really mean is I can’t survive without you..
My life is dark with no colors without you..
Know that i’m asking you to show me you need me as much as I do you..
Begging you to give me my heart back..
Because it hurts so bad to have this empty space where it should be..
You are a stiff drug for me..
Toxic and acidic to my heart
We used to have everything..
I your Cinderella..
You my Prince Charming..
Oh mi amor..
Laying under the night sky..
Counting stars and making love..
Embracing blissfully and talking till the sun comes out..
Walking hand in hand and kissing on the streets..
Oh il mio angelo…
Living in our own beautiful, magical world..
Whispering “I love yous”..
Wherever you are..
Dream a little dream of me..
As my mind and heart lingers on you..
Sweet dreams with bitter longings haunt me..
In a world with out you I am lost..
I wish to feel you with me, on me, around me..
Built like a god..
My mind is a torturous hole
Never leaving me on my own
Forever insisting on ripping my soul apart
Always pondering though out scenario or another
One “what if” or the other
One painful memory or another
I am eternally sucked into my abyss of a brain
Leaving my spirit stained with blotches of sadness
How am I ever to survive..