light

In darkness I lay
Soul snatched by the devil in disguise
searching for the light I lament

My Heart

My heart hurts..
My head lays heavy..
My chest feels empty..
My hands shake..
My lungs cant draw breath..
My eyes stay wet..
Is this what heart break is..

I feel..

Sometimes I feel.
I don’t mean to..
Hell, most times I try not to..
But I can not help it..
When you are near me I feel..
Because you make my world spin a little faster..
Make my dreams seem a little closer..
And then I feel everything..
I feel you deep inside me…
I wish for you to take me..
To make me yours..
Slowly..All day… How ever you want..
But you don’t see me..
Don’t even know I exist..
And it hurts..
It cuts me deep..
Burns like a furnace..
Like you are flaying the skin off my bones..
But my heart doesn’t listen..
When you are around me…
I fall apart…
I can barely breathe…
I still feel too much..

Aching without you..

When you are not with me

When you are far away from me

I feel lost…

Like my head is spinning..

Like I cannot breath..

I feel a hollowness deep within me..

A space in my heart..

I feel a deep aching within my soul..

Drowning…

Is it possible for your heart to hurt so bad the pain feels physical..
For a heart to actually cry..
For you to feel like there’s a lead weight on your chest…
To feel like you have been punched in the chest….
And that your insides are about to rupture and come out through your mouth…
To feel like someone thrust their hand down your throat..
And started pulling your soul right from within you…

Don’t break it…

Take my heart..
Trap it..
Breach it..
Brand it..
Use it…
Consume it..
Engulf it..
Drain it…
But please…
Don’t break it…
Don’t shatter it..

Bring Back The Light..

I knew light…
Danced around the light…
Rejoiced in the radiance…
Basked under it’s luminasity…
Until you came around…
And stole my light away…
Consumed it right from beneath me…
Leaving only a shardowy gloom…
Bathing me in your darkness…

Give Me My Heart Back..

I wish I could plug a lovometer into my heart..
Or even place a stethoscope near on my chest…
Or simply put your hand on my chest..
Just so you can feel me..
Know me..
Gage my love..
So you can know how you make me burn..
How my heart aches and breaks when I can’t have you..
So that you know when I tell you I miss you, I need you.. I want you..
What I really mean is I can’t survive without you..
My life is dark with no colors without you..
Know that i’m asking you to show me you need me as much as I do you..
Begging you to give me my heart back..
Because it hurts so bad to have this empty space where it should be..

Toxic Angst..

You are a stiff drug for me..
Toxic and acidic to my heart

Devouring me up from the inside out..

I’m in a constant fog..

Trying but failing desperately to remember my life before you..

You blind me from seeing the rest of the world..

Fueling my frantic need for you..

My dependency of you is an ache..

An ache which morphs into a physical pain..

When i’m away from you I can not bare it..

You open my rib cage and leave my soul exposed..

My core drilled and etched away..

You are my needle, my anxiety, my morphine..

You unnaturally enjoys my suffering..

Watching me sadistically and giving me a wicked smile..

Your distance brings about a state of confusion, perplexity, mystery..

A feeling of deep and utter loss..

Feelings of bereavement bring about withdrawal symptoms..

And I have no way of preventing this angst.. 

Bewitched..

Compelled by his love ..

Right from the start he was a thief..
Caught me unawares..
Stole my love..

Mind, body and soul, i’m captured..

Enchanted by a man so powerful..

Holding me so close i feel him within me..

My senses assaulted by his caress..

By his mesmerizing voice..

By his captivating eyes..

By his intoxicating scent..

Goodness me..

How do I escape from his web..