You are the reason I draw breathes
The reason I open my eyes
The reason my heart beats a little too fast
The reason I can smell the blossoms
The reason I hear birds chip in the morning
The reason I smile
The reason my lips tingle with just a slight touch from yours
The reason my spine curves with just a stroke of your finger
You are the reason my body lights up with just a glance from your mesmerizing eyes
The reason my toes curl up in ecstasy every time I hear your deep baritone
You are the reason
My reason for everything
I have a confession .. Anywhere we are… Anytime.. I want to be where ever you are I want to see whatever you see.. To feel Everything you feel.. To swim in your happiness.. To drown in your sadness and misery.. To be part of every adventure.. Every moment.. To be a part of you.. To live in your soul…. To walk around your heart.. I want to know how to love you… How to make you smile.. How to make you cry.. How to make you lose your mind.. How to drive you mad with passion.. How to bring out the beast in you… How to make desire pour out of you.. And pour onto me.. How to make you violent.. I want to know every.. Because I am trapped.. Trapped within myself when you cross my mind..
A slave to a master..
I endure only pain.. Committed to a life of loneliness and despair.. Just a body with an empty soul..
Sometimes… Sometimes I wish I could be your shadow.. To trail behind you like a lost soul trying to catch on to its body.. Just so that I can get a chance….. A fruitless, mindless chance… To simply exist within the same space as you..
Sometimes I feel.
I don’t mean to..
Hell, most times I try not to..
But I can not help it..
When you are near me I feel..
Because you make my world spin a little faster..
Make my dreams seem a little closer..
And then I feel everything..
I feel you deep inside me…
I wish for you to take me..
To make me yours..
Slowly..All day… How ever you want..
But you don’t see me..
Don’t even know I exist..
And it hurts..
It cuts me deep..
Burns like a furnace..
Like you are flaying the skin off my bones..
But my heart doesn’t listen..
When you are around me…
I fall apart…
I can barely breathe…
I still feel too much..
Sometimes I look at your pictures..
Our pictures…. Going through each and every one of them.. I have tried to delete them.. I really have.. But that part of my heart that still belongs to you just won’t let me.. One by one..I explore them.. Investigate them.. Looking at happier times.. Seeing a time when you used to adore me.. To still need me.. To still miss me..
To look at me like I was your whole world.. A time when a day wouldn’t pass without you telling me I was yours.. Sometimes memories of us play in my head.. Over and over like a never ending reel.. Torturing my very being.. Because I know this reel will never be expanded.. Added to with new memories.. Sometimes I try to not think about you.. Because when I do I lose myself in an emotion filled tide.. I disappear into a dark abyss of utter pain.. My soul aches for you.. My heart breaks into a million pieces My body yearns for your touch.. Sometimes….. Just sometimes… I wish you still belonged to me…