Shadow..

Sometimes…
Sometimes I wish I could be your shadow..
To trail behind you like a lost soul trying to catch on to its body..
Just so that I can get a chance…..
A fruitless, mindless chance…
To simply exist within the same space as you..

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Sometimes…

Sometimes I look at your pictures..
Our pictures….

Going through each and every one of them..
I have tried to delete them.. I really have..
But that part of my heart that still belongs to you just won’t let me..
One by one..I explore them..
Investigate them..
Looking at happier times..
Seeing a time when you used to adore me..
To still need me..
To still miss me..
To look at me like I was your whole world..

A time when a day wouldn’t pass without you telling me I was yours..
Sometimes memories of us play in my head..
Over and over like a never ending reel..
Torturing my very being..
Because I know this reel will never be expanded..
Added to with new memories..
Sometimes I try to not think about you..
Because when I do I lose myself in an emotion filled tide..
I disappear into a dark abyss of utter pain..
My soul aches for you..
My heart breaks into a million pieces
My body yearns for your touch..
Sometimes….. Just sometimes…
I wish you still belonged to me…

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Fact Is…

My love for you is not a feeling…
It is a fact…
Same as the sun rising…
The blue of the sky…
The changing of the seasons…
The shining stars in the night sky…
The blooming flowers in the spring time…
Fact is darling…
Enchanted me you have…
My need for you comes naturally…
Like the air in my lungs..

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I Breathe You… For You..

Has it really been this long?

I gaze at you in disbelief
4 years 8 months?
Seems more like 4 days 8 hours
Not knowing you were out there before we met wounded my heart
I lived my life in  bewildered despair
I didn’t realize how much I needed and wanted you
Until i set my eyes on you
Then my whole life fell into place
You make me want to run far far way
Yet you yield me to yearn to cling hard on to you
Every second we are apart
I miss you more than the sunshine
Iv longed for you for so long I feel as though Iv lived my whole life with this hunger
You quench my thirst with your love and your devotion
Without you i just might willow away into nothingness..