You are the reason I draw breathes
The reason I open my eyes
The reason my heart beats a little too fast
The reason I can smell the blossoms
The reason I hear birds chip in the morning
The reason I smile
The reason my lips tingle with just a slight touch from yours
The reason my spine curves with just a stroke of your finger
You are the reason my body lights up with just a glance from your mesmerizing eyes
The reason my toes curl up in ecstasy every time I hear your deep baritone
You are the reason
My reason for everything
I have a confession .. Anywhere we are… Anytime.. I want to be where ever you are I want to see whatever you see.. To feel Everything you feel.. To swim in your happiness.. To drown in your sadness and misery.. To be part of every adventure.. Every moment.. To be a part of you.. To live in your soul…. To walk around your heart.. I want to know how to love you… How to make you smile.. How to make you cry.. How to make you lose your mind.. How to drive you mad with passion.. How to bring out the beast in you… How to make desire pour out of you.. And pour onto me.. How to make you violent.. I want to know every.. Because I am trapped.. Trapped within myself when you cross my mind..
A slave to a master..
I endure only pain.. Committed to a life of loneliness and despair.. Just a body with an empty soul..
Sometimes… Sometimes I wish I could be your shadow.. To trail behind you like a lost soul trying to catch on to its body.. Just so that I can get a chance….. A fruitless, mindless chance… To simply exist within the same space as you..
Kiss my lips..
And you will have me for a day..
Kiss my body..
And you will have me for a night..
Kiss my eyes..
And you will chase away my tears..
Kiss my forehead..
And you will slaughter my nightmares..
Kiss my heart..
And you will own me for a year..
Kiss my soul..
And I’m yours for a lifetime..
You walk into a crowded room..
You search..scanning the faces in the room..
Until your eyes find mine..
Then time stills..
The world stops spinning..
I stop breathing..
Like its been forever..
An eternety really..
Forever and a hundred days..
Since I have been discovered..
Since you have looked at me..
Since you have explored me..
But in reality..
It has been but an hour..
I want to fall..
To fall so suddenly and so fast..
To fall in love so hard it hurts..
To fall maddenly over the peak I would break..
To stay up all night talking about things..
Or maybe not talking at all..
I want to claw across him..
Crawl into him..
To learn his every secret..
His every flaw..
His every thought..
His every story..
His every dream..
I want to be in one of those dreams..
To be all he dreams about..
All he thinks about..
I want to be one of those secrets..
To be all his words..
To be intoxicated by him..
to feel crazed by him..
To be wanton and out of control..
I want to fall so deep..
So deep it makes me want to do everything..
Or maybe nothing..
To be helpless in his love..
To fall and never get up..
Gazing at you..
At your deep, dark blue eyes..
Or are they purple..
I dare not wonder anymore..
All I know is they stole my words…
And now I need those eyes to keep existing..
Because they see me….
They see my soul..
My inner being..
They give me strength..
Fill me with love..With hope..With life..
Without them I am lost..
Sometimes I think i’m safely in your arms.. I think my world is completely whole.. Happy even.. That I might wake up to see your handsome face.. To feel your soft lips on mine.. Your calloused hands softly caressing my body.. But then reality crashes down over me.. And i realize that the place where my heart used to reside is empty.. I realize you are nowhere to be found, no longer with me.. And I remember you are a million miles away from me.. And I start to miss you all over again..