My First Heart Break

They say a mother’s love is all encompassing
A mother’s love is power
A mother’s love gives sustenance
A mother’s love heals wounds
A mother’s love embraces the heart and soul

She birthed me
She raised me
She fed me
She loved me
But never as much as she did my kin

She birthed her before me
She put her on a pedestal
She nourished her
Mind body and soul
She adored her
More than she ever did me

They say a mother’s love is all encompassing
But my mother’s love is fickle and conditional


A mother’s love gives power
But my mother’s love makes me weak and frail


A mother’s love gives sustenance
But my mother’s love leaves me yearning and famished


A mother’s love heals all wounds
But my mother’s love breaks me and creates deep gashes


A mother’s love embraces your heart and soul
But my mother’s love shatters my heart and cracks open my soul



Image from an unknown artist

To be…Or Not To Be..

My life..
My love..
My only one..
Or so i thought..
You, my dream,my fantasy..
No longer my reality..
My source of light,of joy, of love, of all things wonderful..
Now my cause for pain, for heartache, for pure torture..
You, who captured my soul, my heart in beautiful rose nets..

Now leaves me captured in torment, in black vines of death..
With no hope, no faith of survival..
I crave for your adoration, your touch, your voice..
Because you are mine no more..
I long for your memories to leave me..
Night in and day out your face haunts my existence..

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