More and more my head rules my life.. I stay alive in my own head.. Thinking…Wondering… Stressing Imagining..Fantasizing.. Shutting myself out from the world.. The disappointment around me.. The desolation of being me.. The pain of reality..
More and more I live in my own head.. My happy place.. My solace of peace.. Reality and fantasy merging into one.. More and more I vanish Evaporating into nothingness.. And more and more I do not want to come back..
My soul speaks to you…
Your ego speaks to me..
You look into my eyes and you see unfathomable love..
I look into your eyes and all I see is cold lust…
You search my heart and all you find is longing..
I search your heart and all I find is emptiness…
You touch my body and you want to do like you did a hundred before me..
I touch your body and I want yours to be the only body I touch..
You need someone there to make you feel good about yourself..
I need someone there to love and complete me…
You open your mouth and all that flows out is vanity and lies..
I open my mouth and all that flows out is endless honesty..
You need to leave but you won’t because you are addicted to the sex…
I need to leave but I won’t because I am addicted to the thought of you loving me..
My lips speak to you and all you want to do is have a taste…
Your lips speak and all I want to do is be your girl for eternity…
I speak to you and all that comes out is question after question..
You speak to me and not a single answer makes an appearance..
I cant get enough of your sweet meaningless words…
You cant get enough of my soft touch and calming voice..
You spin your web of lies and trap me in..
I spin my web of naivety and hope and try to trap you…
We are forever stuck in a place that neither of us can escape…
You are the reason I draw breathes
The reason I open my eyes
The reason my heart beats a little too fast
The reason I can smell the blossoms
The reason I hear birds chip in the morning
The reason I smile
The reason my lips tingle with just a slight touch from yours
The reason my spine curves with just a stroke of your finger
You are the reason my body lights up with just a glance from your mesmerizing eyes
The reason my toes curl up in ecstasy every time I hear your deep baritone
You are the reason
My reason for everything
Iv always had a fear of not being enough.. Not pretty enough.. Not smart enough… Not successful enough.. Not adventurous enough.. Not outgoing enough.. Not lovable enough.. But you.. You make me feel ..
Like a genius.. Like a goddess.. Like the life of the party.. Loved, cherished, adored, cared for, protected, desired.. You make me feel like I am all that you will ever need.. Like I am your whole world.. Like your life would never be complete without me.. Like your life would be without color.. Without light.. You make me feel like I am more than enough.. Like i’m special..One of a kind.. And for that I will love you till my last breath..