I feel a darkness..
A darkness within..
Like dark poisonous vines curving around a dying tree..
Utter and ultimate misery..
Twirls around my slow beating heart..
Swallowing me whole..
Devouring my inner being..
Is it possible for your heart to hurt so bad the pain feels physical..
For a heart to actually cry..
For you to feel like there’s a lead weight on your chest…
To feel like you have been punched in the chest….
And that your insides are about to rupture and come out through your mouth…
To feel like someone thrust their hand down your throat..
And started pulling your soul right from within you…
“Iv never done this before”.. I whispered more to myself than to her..
“I’m glad i’m your first” She murmured..
Distracted by the sound of my dress hitting the floor..
She watched me…No.. Gazed at me..
Eyes glazed over in lust..Pure unadulterated desire..
Taking everything in as if in a trance..
As if I’m the sexiest vixen alive..
She sat quietly as I took off every stitch of clothing..
Letting them fall one by one..
Exposing myself to her hungry stare..
Until I stood in front of her with just my heels..
As she strolled towards me.. Prowled more like
Focused, sexy and confident..
Like a panther stalking it’s prey..
Ready for the take down..
A slight shiver of anticipation runs though my body..
As she stops in front of me she ran her hands over me..
Leaving goose bumps trailing behind her caress..
Starting at the nape of my neck.. Down my arms..
Touching the side of my breast.. Barely grazing my nipples..
“So beautiful” She said sounding amazed..
“Am I really all she says i am” my mind starts to wonder…
She moves her hands down my waist..
Grabbing my butt and squeezing roughly..
Moaning deep in her throat before her soft perfect lips crashed down on mine…
All thought dissipated…
All that mattered was this feeling.. This moment..
Rocking back and forth..
Trapped in the cornner sobbing..
Trying to outrun the nightmare..
Incubus won’t vanish..
Tormenting me day and night..
Keeping me in the hallows of fear..
Eternally held captive..
Danmed to live in the horrid darkness..
I read something like this somewhere once, I don’t really remember where exactly, but I just wanted to share because it stuck with me. :-)
Today I would follow you anywhere…
I would give you anything you want…
I need you now. ..
I want us to become one…
Tomorrow is no guarantee my love…
Please allow me to become your place to be free and wild…
What does more or less mean when there is the opportunity for us to truly dance in passion?
Today we are alive…
Forever daydreaming of true love’s perfect kiss…
A kiss so sweet, Angels weep…
Iv always had a fear of not being enough..
Not pretty enough..
Not smart enough…
Not successful enough..
Not adventurous enough..
Not outgoing enough..
Not lovable enough..
You make me feel ..
Like a genius..
Like a goddess..
Like the life of the party..
Loved, cherished, adored, cared for, protected, desired..
You make me feel like I am all that you will ever need..
Like I am your whole world..
Like your life would never be complete without me..
Like your life would be without color..
You make me feel like I am more than enough..
Like i’m special..One of a kind..
And for that I will love you till my last breath..