I feel a darkness..
A darkness within..
Like dark poisonous vines curving around a dying tree..
Utter and ultimate misery..
Twirls around my slow beating heart..
Swallowing me whole..
Devouring my inner being..
Is it possible for your heart to hurt so bad the pain feels physical.. For a heart to actually cry.. For you to feel like there’s a lead weight on your chest… To feel like you have been punched in the chest…. And that your insides are about to rupture and come out through your mouth… To feel like someone thrust their hand down your throat.. And started pulling your soul right from within you…
“Iv never done this before”.. I whispered more to myself than to her..
“I’m glad i’m your first” She murmured..
Distracted by the sound of my dress hitting the floor..
She watched me…No.. Gazed at me..
Eyes glazed over in lust..Pure unadulterated desire..
Taking everything in as if in a trance..
As if I’m the sexiest vixen alive..
She sat quietly as I took off every stitch of clothing..
Letting them fall one by one..
Exposing myself to her hungry stare..
Until I stood in front of her with just my heels..
As she strolled towards me.. Prowled more like
Focused, sexy and confident..
Like a panther stalking it’s prey..
Ready for the take down..
A slight shiver of anticipation runs though my body..
As she stops in front of me she ran her hands over me..
Leaving goose bumps trailing behind her caress..
Starting at the nape of my neck.. Down my arms..
Touching the side of my breast.. Barely grazing my nipples..
“So beautiful” She said sounding amazed..
“Am I really all she says i am” my mind starts to wonder…
She moves her hands down my waist..
Grabbing my butt and squeezing roughly..
Moaning deep in her throat before her soft perfect lips crashed down on mine…
All thought dissipated…
All that mattered was this feeling.. This moment..
Please don’t leave me.. I’ll be good.. Better than before.. I need you… I crave you.. I will do anything you desire of me.. I will be anyone you need me to be.. I will follow you to the ends of the world.. Just please don’t leave.. Stay with me…
I knew light…
Danced around the light…
Rejoiced in the radiance…
Basked under it’s luminasity…
Until you came around…
And stole my light away…
Consumed it right from beneath me…
Leaving only a shardowy gloom…
Bathing me in your darkness…
Rocking back and forth.. Trapped in the cornner sobbing.. Trying to outrun the nightmare.. Incubus won’t vanish.. Tormenting me day and night.. Keeping me in the hallows of fear.. Eternally held captive.. Danmed to live in the horrid darkness..
I read something like this somewhere once, I don’t really remember where exactly, but I just wanted to share because it stuck with me. :-)
Today I would follow you anywhere… I would give you anything you want… I need you now. .. I want us to become one… Tomorrow is no guarantee my love… Please allow me to become your place to be free and wild… What does more or less mean when there is the opportunity for us to truly dance in passion? Today we are alive… Forever daydreaming of true love’s perfect kiss… A kiss so sweet, Angels weep…