Gut Wrenching Ache

My insides are overflowing with emotions

I feel an emptiness that is filled with sorrow
With every call my insides are twisted with hope
At war with myself I do not see any light in the mist
Confusion, sensation, terror and loneliness clouds and corrodes my very being
Chaos and merciless gloom slowly causes my demise
My knight in shinning armor has long been destroyed by the war
Savior is not an option, it is a far fetched mysterious fantasy
All i can do is lie here and wait for the sweet release of fatality

43 thoughts on “Gut Wrenching Ache

  1. I can’t stand this!! You’re so dear to me and I am so lost to help you! I wrote something else that I want you to read when you feel up to it, I wish I could do more. My prayer is this: Dear God in heaven, send a multitude of angels to surround my babygirl, lifting her up with their wings into Your loving presence. Comfort her, console her, permeate every cell in her body with Your Spirit, infuse her with Your love and give her peace in the knowledge that You are holding her in Your arms today and every day! In Jesus Name I pray. Amen and amen! I love Abi!!! XOXO

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  3. Hello, Abi.
    New to your site, but here to encourage you nonetheless. Time & Jesus heals all pain — just stay the course and you will triumph. I’ll keep you in my prayers.
    God Bless You,

  4. Hi Abi and Terri this is wonderful of you to do. Abi you are such a sweetie and a heart break hurts no matter what. Things like that feel like they do last forever. I can agree, it sometimes helps us write and the writing does usually help. Many hugs to you, Abi. I’ll be praying that it gets better fast. Take a tiny step at a time 🙂 it works for me. hugs, Autumn

  5. Hi Abi first of all let me tell you ….you have been blessed with an angel on your side and her name is Terri..
    you are a beautiful poet Abi…every word of your poetry reflects the couragious warm soul that you are..
    years back someone near told me a thing and i held on to it as a Mantra…have you ever felt a sudden feeling of warmth in harsh cold winter,the sudden soothing cold breeze in hot scorching summer..thats our near and dear ones lost telling us they are near and there for us…close your eyes and call them with all your heart and soon you will feel a calmness and what ever your problems will slowly fade away…
    hugs and lots of love for you, may the wamth of my wishes touch you and take away all your pain

  6. omg 😮 abi, i have been away for sometime… and then, this is what i read when i opened your blog…

    every word pierced through my heart… i feel so much pain for you! 😦 my prayers are with you… i have been in a situation somewhat like this. in time, we’ll find someone who heals every broken piece of our heart… sending hugs for you! stay strong, hold on to dear life…

    • I am trying my best to hold on to dear life, and thank you so much for being there for me, my pain streams through my heart into paper because it is the only thing i know how to do.. 🙂

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  8. The fiber of your work is intense, heartfelt, and relatable. I enjoyed my time here, and in some way, felt I grieved with you. Your words have a way of opening up a soul just enough to receive some truth at heart. Best wishes in all you do. Celeste
    And a warm thanks for your visit and follow. 🙂

  9. Dear Abi, when I look around I see life all around me. A husband, daughters, son, mother, brother, caring relatives, and friends are in every direction I turn. That’s when it dawned on me: Where there is life, there really is hope! It’s okay to express, acknowledge, mourn your inner feelings…just don’t stay in that dark spot too long. Keep on writing your eloquent tunes…they each represent a beautiful you.

  10. My god!! so much pain, so much heart ache, i have seen about 3 of your latest poems now and they are riveting.. your poems makes a person want to hold you tight and never let you go so that you wont ever have to feel so much pain.. but i guess you have your bf fro that.. again, very beautiful.. 🙂

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