The Human Species

We are imperfect beings. 

We should all learn to love one another without prejudice and doubt.
We are who we are.
The most important things in life aren’t things
Love is something that we can’t touch, hear and smell.
It is invisible but powerful and can affect us in ways we never imagined. 
Don’t let it affect your joy and happiness, let it be an experience and memory in our life.
Take up one idea.
 Make that one idea your life – think of it, dream of it, live on that idea.
 Let the brain, muscles, nerves, every part of your body, be full of that idea.
And just leave every other idea alone.
Use your health, even to the point of wearing it out. 
That is what it is for. 
Spend all you have before you die; do not outlive yourself This is the way to success, that is way great spiritual giants are produced!!
So Never waste a minute of your precious life by squandering it thinking about people you don’t like!!
Such people are only a mediocre part of the puzzle which u refer to as life and you should always know t
hat our attitude toward life determines life’s attitude towards us.If you wait to do everything until you’re sure it’s right, you’ll probably never do much of anything.
So whenever opportunity presents its self,grab it before its to late or else you will be sitting behind someone who actually took it with regret eating at you!!!Never forget to view life as a continuous learning experience!!!
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Lost In Me

Who am i?

Who did i used to be
Am i the same person i was when you met me
Or did something in me disappear
Was i once a jolly carefree creature
Was i once a social out loud person
Did i once have hopes and dreams about the future
Did i once have talents beyond my understanding
Or was this all a torturous dream
Because now all that i see when i look in the mirror
Is a blank stare
A person i cant recognize
A quite girl who is retreating into herself
What do you do if you lost something you are not even sure existed
How can you try to find something that you don’t even see
Deep inside me is a different person waiting to be unleashed
Bound by chains and shackles
Trapped in a non existent state
All that she sees is darkness
No light to lead the way out of the prison
And i can’t do anything to help her
For she is me
And i am lost in myself…

I Wont Tell

I won’t tell anybody that you touch me so softly

I won’t tell anybody that you whisper to me your deepest secrets

I won’t tell anybody that you come to me in the deep of the night when i need you

I won’t tell anybody that I loved you the first time you lay a finger on me

I won’t tell anybody that the first time your lips brushed on mine I got a shiver down my spine

I won’t tell anybody how I’m under your spell

I won’t tell anybody how you have turned my life upside down, and inside out

I won’t tell anyone how your voice makes me shiver with excitement

I won’t tell anyone how I have to sort my thoughts before meeting you because I’m afraid I will bore you just like I do many others

Don’t tell anyone that I have given you my whole heart

Don’t tell anyone that you are my life force

Don’t tell anyone how my hearts stops beating when you are about to appear

Don’t tell anyone how our love makes everything else seem insignificant

Don’t tell anyone how our love makes everyone else invisible

Don’t tell anyone how you made me the woman that I am

Don’t tell anyone how I cry on your shoulder when they tear my heart apart

Don’t tell anyone how you hold me and rock me back and forth because of their filthy words

Don’t tell anyone that you are my home away from home

They will try to break us down day in and day out

They try to make it hard for us to love each other

They try to tear me down and break me

They try to make me a monster

They try to make you a monster

They try to make us lose hope

They try to tear us apart

So lets not tell them

Lets keep them in the dark

Lets keep our love a sacred affair

Lets keep our sweet entanglement a secret to be discovered by future historians

Lets keep our secrets in the cocoon of our love

Because they will never understand

Is This Love

When i think of you
i get chills down my spine
when i think about talking to you
My mind goes into overdrive
When i think about hearing your voice
I get butterflies in my tummy
When you touch me so softly
You make me forget your name
When i know you are somewhere alone
I get excited about seeing you again
When i think about you talking to some other girl
I get jealous because she is talking to you and i’m not
When i sleep at night
I have beautiful, wonderful dreams about us and our future
When i sit alone during the day
I have amazing fantasies and daydreams about you
When i finally see you
I feel so happy and exhilarated because we are together at last
When you hold me in your arms
I feel so safe and at home
When we are together every single day
I feel so complete
When i think of you
I start remembering that you are cold sometimes
When i think about talking to you
I wonder what you will say that will hurt me that day
When i think about hearing your voice
I feel a pit deep in my tummy
When you touch me so roughly
I feel like spiders are crawling up my body
When i know you are somewhere alone
I wonder what it is that you are doing that will hurt me
When i think about you talking to some other girl
I get so hurt because i know you are flirting with them
When i sleep at night
I have haunting night mares about us and our future
When i sit alone during the day
I check my phone a million times because i miss you so much
When i finally see you
I feel so down because you don’t seem to love that i am there
When you hold me in your arms
I feel so unsure
When we are together every single day
I feel like there is something missing
Is this what love is?

words don’t come easy

picture by Abigail Kabomo

Words don’t come easy

This is true with all of us

We often yearn for a second chance

A chance to erase all our mistakes

A change to fight another battle

But never have the courage to ask for it

The path ahead is never clear

Days are so short and there is so much to do

Sometimes all we need to do is just say

“Let’s forget it”..”Lets Put it aside”

And be grateful for the things we have and the people in our lives

Lay down and watch the stars above

Revel at the wonderful creations around us

The sea, the sun, the Greatness of humanity

The flowers, the singing birds and the love between people

Lets find something better to love than to hate

Let the bitter words spoken by others slide off us

Lets smile it away and look forward to the sunshiny days ahead

Because even though words don’t come easy

Quitting is as easy as a walk in the park

So never give up in despair

Because tomorrow always comes

And the hope for a fresh start…

Little Girl

Little girl kisses her mum before school

As she hops through the gates to her class

She smiles and greets everyone with a jolly “hello”

Enthusiastic as she looks forward to her day

Thinking today will be the day i finally make a friend

Little girl kisses her mum goodnight

Tells her “i love you”

But she cries all alone

As she sits up on her bed in the dark of the night

Staining her pillow

Closing her eyes

As she dreams of a better life

A life where she has friends

A life were other kids like her

A life where kids don’t think she is weird or awkward

She is all alone

All that she wants

Is someone to like her…

What will it take…

I try so hard..

Every single day..

I can only take so much

I can only take someone’s badgering for so long

I try so hard to be everything for someone

And in the end it amounts to nothing

What do i have to do i have to do to make you realise

That im here to stay

That for as long as i love you i have to put up with you

With your difficulties

I’ll breathe you in and cherish you

That the things you do and the things you say hurt me

What does it take to jump off that cliff

The cliff is high, the drop is steep, the fear is great

Im at the edge and i cant seem to make the leap

What will it take for you to understand me

What will it take for you to understand my feelings

What are you so frightened of

Why do you keep pushing me away

Why cant you just accept that i love you

Why cant you just say yes..

Why cant you just accept things the way they are

What will it take??!!

freedom!!

You can say what you want

But i’ll never let you get on my case

When life gets hectic who do i have

I’m i able to continue with things the way they are

What boundaries do i have to break to continue

How do i make change happen

What does the change entail

Who do i keep in my life

Who do i get rid of

How will my life change since i have no feeling anyone

How do i deal with defeat

How come i’m writing instead of drawing

How come this is the only way to express my feelings

How come i have no hope of a better life?

A happier life

How do i make them understand to not expect anything from me anymore

How do i not care about life anymore

Things which used to hurt are hurting less and less lately

As long as i don’t try,nothing can go wrong and no one can hurt me

I really should try but i just don’t give a danm anymore

I feel a huge weight being lifted from my shoulders!!

I feel free for the first time in a long time

No more trying for me.. just acceptance…

Walls Of Destruction

The walls i build around me are as hard as steel

Put around me to protect me

But instead they bring me pain

Because with them so high i have nothing to gain

I keep you at a distance so you see only the facade

So that my troubled, misery filled life does not infect you.

Pushing you away would be the best protection

Because i don’t want to strengthen the connection

I am terrified of my severe feelings for you

They have a hold on to me which makes me blue

My life always seem to lead to pain

Being with me you have nothing to gain

No matter how hard I try to disappear

 I never seem to be in the clear

I want to live my life with no terror

Terrified that someone will walk up to me and hurt me

Terrified that someone will leave me

Terrified that nothing will never workout for me

Terrified that i will end up alone

Because all i bring to your life is pain

I just want to be normal and bring joy to you..

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